when the sky falls you never stand still.

So it seems that i have this knack for creating options out of chaos and giving myself ways out even when things come crashing down. Something small that was not really an issue turned into a monster which led a company to try and protect itself, and left me homeless and without a job in a country I love but still don't understand.
I was given 4 days to find a place to live and find a new job or have to go home. Well, its been a week and I’ve managed to find a place to stay that is a lot cheaper then where I was living, (free till Christmas)and now I'm working at a bar and also working for myself doing private lessons and clearing more per week then I was at my previous job. The cool thing is, I’m making more then I was before and most days only working 3 hours.
But, in the week in which I’ve managed to save the world.. or rather my world, I’ve been doing a lot of thinking. I could stay here and make some decent money. I could build my client base and see what being an entrepreneur feels like...
But as anyone that has ever read my blog knows, I am continually ranting about how I would love to go to grad school even if there is more money to be made else where and even if I might fail. So, I’m going to make a stab in the dark. At Christmas I will hand over what I’ve managed to build up so far to a friend and come home for a stint. (I’ve been surprised at how easy it has been to build a small client base) The plan is to head back to school for a semester of non-degree status. I’ve been told that if I can work my ass off and get at least 3 A’s and a B plus (though I’ll aim for 4 a’s) I can erase the effect of 2 bad marks from 3rd year and get my overall to a high B+ (now a B) and my philosophy grads to a A- (now a B+) This will also give me time to suck up for some academic references which currently I do not have and also give me time pick a school and start talking to profs from the school I want to attend. Then in the summer I’ll apply to grad school, and maybe do my LSAT and apply to law school as a back up plan, and then head back to japan while I wait for the answer.
Yess I know that I always seem to have a different plan and that this is just another in a line of many, but this is all I’ve got.
So ya, I’ll be buying my ticket soon. In Cornwall dec 20th for the holidays and then headed back to Toronto to upgrade something I already finished while people I went to are either already in their careers or are in grad school... I hope I’m not being crazy.

quote of the week...

"The end. Aaaaaah! Plat. Finished... not a nice way to die.... the best thing would be to break your neck , but you'd probably just break your leg and then you couldn't do anything. You'd yell at the top of your lungs, but nobody would hear you, and you couldn't expect anyone to find you, and you'd have centipedes and spiders crawling all over you, and trhe bones of the ones who died before are scattered all around you, and it's dark and soggy, and high overhead there's this tiny tiny circle of light like a winter moon. You die there in this place, little by little, all by yourself... "