I’m sitting waiting for my flight back to Canada and trying to get my head around the fact that I’m leaving this place. (That and trying to get through a hang over since my friends bought me a lot of liqueur which we all drank very fast before we said our good byes and I got on the bus to Tokyo. Its been a week of tears and free booze). Not my home, though maybe more my home then anywhere else, its been a really hard experience getting ready to say good bye. I’ve just scratched the surface of the language (I suck) and have not experienced half of what I should have while being here. The next 6 months back in Canada thus are not about being home (since I don’t think that I am particularly bound to Canada), but about giving me a 2nd chance to get my shit together and then get my ass back to Asia. I’m going to do a semester of school to try and get some good grades, up my gpa, get references from profs so I can apply to grad school. I’m also going to do the LSAT’s and apply to law school too. So somehow I have to turn into someone I’m not. I have to somehow buckle down and focus for 6 months. My friend Michael is the ideal of what I have to be this next little while. He studied for 2 months for the GRE’s and had the focus of a surgeon. He said himself that his life sucked for that time being that he was either working, studying at the gym or sleeping. I think he granted himself one day off a week turning town many invitations for nights out and turning into a temporary sort of hermit. But, in the end he scored a crazy high score and now will have a lot of doors opened to him that he did not have before. Those that know me well know that I am not the type to be able to focus long. I am too social and too easily diverted from seriousness that the chances of my pulling this all together with the results I want are pretty slim. But I’m going to try.
And then, while I wait to hear back from schools about my fall 09 application I’ll head back to Asia. Its funny, There are many reasons why I would want to choose somewhere else to go next. For example, economically in the short term Korea pays a lot better and the cost of living is a lot cheaper. Though of course the style of living is a little harder to adapt to. In the long term, it seems it would probably serve me better to learn Chinese or Arab instead of Japanese since these two are, and are predicated to be, the most profitable languages in the world after English. But, after spending 10 months working on getting a basic understanding of the language there is a part of me that does not want to start over. Of course, 10 months is nothing and my skills are so low that starting over would probably not be the end of the world. I’m always changing my mind about everything and in the end its hard to know where I’ll end up... but I do love japan and will be back. If things stay as they are now I’ll be back this summer and staying till grad school. We’ll see.

crazy

so guys.. i'm home soon... at airport... arg! i don't want to leave!

will post what i wrote on the bus here later... see you guys soon!