"We have lived together in a dream up to now. When we awake will we find each other still?"
I scame around the bed and stood near to her. I worshipped her closeness. I said,
"Well, we must hold hands tightly and hope that we can keep hold of each other through the dream and out into the waking world. "
As she still would not speak I said,
"could we be happy?"
She said,
This has nothing to do with happiness, nothing whatever"
That was true. I took in the promise of her words. I aid
"I wonder if I shall survive it"
She said smiling splendidly,
"You must take your chance!"
I gave her back the bright light of the smaile, now softening at last out of irony.
"So must you, my dear!"

ok so um.. i need to come up with 200 bucks by tomorrow. any lenders out there?

crazy

I'm in vancouver now.

Or rather, i'm in Nannimo and a little drunk.

But i'm missing toronto.

Or rather, i'm missing a girl. Though i know i would have fucked it up if I had stayed. the memories created will be worth a lifetime. I was happiest as of late when i was with her.

The first day of the rest of our lives.. and I miss you already.

Everything sucks when your gone...

Maybe i'll be lucky and see you shortly.

anyway, i'll be on the island till monday seeing old friends and then trying to make some money on the island this week till i fly out on thursday. Then its the scary world of "real life" and "real jobs" um.. o crap.

...

I leave toronto today. I'm sorry to everyone who i should have said goodbye to but didn't. I will miss everyone i have come to call friends here.

I will also miss you. You who held me so tight. I think that I will miss you more then most, though we only lived for but a moment. It's funny how things work out.

Tomorrow will be the goodbyes in Cornwall... then I fly away.

A new chapter.. a new note.
I'm worried that I will fail, I'm worried I will fall.
I'm worried that I will loose... it all.
But this is the ultimate test of metal and I am not a child any more.

Leaving Toronto for a couple of years as of tomorrow... Alot of people to miss.

Well, it's almsot time for me to leave. My 25th birthday has come and gone and now i'm busy trying to make some quick cash and packing for Japan. I fly to Vancouver next thursday to spend time with some old friends and to make some money before Flying to Osaka on the 30th. To tell you the truth, this has been comming so long i'm alomst in shell chock that its finally almost here. I'm leaving behind friends, family, and a pretty amazing girl that ive been dating for the past little while. What lies ahead is a new country, a new home, a new job that is my first real job, and the realization that I can no longer claim to be a student. Well, atleast for now. IF the stars aline and things go the way i'd like, i'll be in grad school in fall of 2008... all i can do is hpe and pray for that one.. but who really knows who i'll be when i come back... or where i'll be going.

I guess we'll have to wait and see.

Just a quick update. I Turn 25 in 9 days and leave move to Japan in about 3 weeks!!

Lastly: Since I'm finally getting a realjob i guess i'l have to stopbeing a beger.. so to end it all.. i'm starting a tattoo fund. I ave 3 weeks to raise enought o get my first tattoo before I moe to Japan.. anyone interested in donating?